Week 10, Update on Goals

Below are my initial goals.  Now, time for the update:

Spiritual, I would say that I went up a number to a strong 7.  I am trying to focus my spirit a little better, have some loving kindness thrown in there on a regular basis, relax in my spirit and a little more open to mediation, in the sense that I will be more relaxed and calm abiding.

Mental Health-  I would by no means say that my self esteem has jumped, but I do feel a bit more confident in myself.  I think my CrossFit class has helped in that area, making me away that yes I can do something that I didn't think I could ever do.

I have not lost the 10 to 15 pounds, but I am down 5!
I am spending a bit more time with God, but not the amount that I wanted.
I can honestly say I like myself a little more.  By changing my eating (I am mostly plant based now) and working out a little more hard core, my skin tone is better and I feel better.
I would like to "run".  I walk very fast, but I have a desire to just RUN!  But at this moment I feel like it is jarring when I do it.  Does anyone else feel this way?

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Ann




Spiritual-I would have to give myself a 6 on this one.  I think spiritual health is just as important as physical health.  Always striving for that perfect mark, working hard to get at it, and one day, when I reach heaven I will receive that crown that I have worked hard for here on earth.  I build up treasures in heaven, not down here where the moth can get to it and eat it all up.  One of my goals from a year or so ago, when I decided to go back to school, was to be an inspiration to anyone and everyone I meet.  If I am not spiritual well, I will not have the strength somedays to get out of bed.  I depend a lot on God, for His guidance, His Word that I can read daily and just his presence.  I am always running the race, waiting to receive the high mark!  But there again, if I think I am a 10, I have nothing to strive for.

Mental Health-I have low self esteem.  I have tried the whole looking in the mirror and saying "your good enough, your smart enough, and gosh darn it, people like you" but I never believe it.  Ever.  My mother growing up would call me names, moose, cow, tubby...words of endearment that I am sure  of now, and no matter how much I have forgiven her (spiritual side), I can NOT get those words out of my head.  I think I could weigh 100 pounds and still feel that way.  Growing up in foster care, even though it was a great home,  made me feel, because I was, different.  That I didn't belong anywhere, not wanted.  I struggle to this day with trying to understand why my husband married me, why people want to be my friend, how I look, am I good enough for my son?  I REALLY need to get this under control. Who wants to come talk to a lady about how they feel, look and are worried about their weight and health if I am crying in the corner because I feel fat that day.  Um no one, that is who!  So in the whole area of psychology wellness, I would give myself a 3...nothing higher for many reasons, and nothing lower because, I do function on a daily basis...

Goals:

Lose this last 10 to 15 pounds
Spend more timing praying, seeking after God
Learn to like myself and then love myself.


Activities:

I think I will just keep doing what I am doing for my physical side.  CrossFit 3 times a week, walking 4 or 5 times a week, eating clean.
Reading my bible more, sharing my faith more.
I need to learn to relax when it comes to ME.  I am cool, I am chill, or I think I can be, do some yoga more!

The relaxation exercise made me nervous, I guess that is the best way to describe it.  I did not like the whole focus on me bit...felt weird.

Unit 9 Project. Made it to the end!

Ann M. Smith

Assignment #9

HW420

My Plan

            From my own personal experience, it is important to have your mind, body and spirit working as one, or together.  If I do not have it together, in all areas, than how can I coach or lead someone into ultimate health and happiness?  The area I need to work on is my mind.  I let my mind control too much of my feelings, emotions, and thinking.  Yes, I know that is what the mind does, but I should not it over rule my body and spirit, especially when my body and spirit are doing the right thing.  I need to learn to control my mind, and not let it wonder so much.  I need to use the witnessing mind mediation more and learn to have complete control over my thoughts. 

            Spiritually, I think I am a 9 out of 10.  I have a spiritual life, I am not ashamed or embarrassed of it.  I like to tell people about what God has done for me, I love to read my bible and mediate on His word, I pray and try my hardest to live a life devoted to God with out making people stumble.  Physically, my goal is a 10, but I am always going to be upping that number.  Once I get to a 10, I will make my goal a 20.  I don’t ever want to hit my goal physically, what would there be to achieve then?  Psychologically?  That is a tough one.  Because I let my mind do it’s own thing sometimes, I have fear, what if I am not able to help anyone, what if I can not do this, what if under my “treatment” someone gets sick or heavier, or more unhealthy?  I would say I am at a strong 5.

            Goals:  Physically, I would love to do a Triathlon.  I will have to keep working towards that goal.  Psychological, working on me controlling my thoughts and feelings, not vice versa and spiritually, I could spend some more time in prayer and some mediation.  I would like to have a deeper mediation life.  But first, I need to calm my mind.

            The practices that I am going to implement into my life are to foster growth are, I am going to keep training my body, pushing it to it’s limits and forcing it to do things that my mind says it can not by doing CrossFit three times a week and running the other four.  I am running my first 5K in October and I want to move on to bigger and better things.  Always pushing past my goal.  I would like to add more flexibility to my body, so I will be doing more yoga on a regular basis.  For my mind, I am going to keep trying the mediation practices laid out in the book Integral Health.  I am going to master this!  I have decided to do it after my yoga sessions.  I am very calmed and relaxed after these sessions; I think I will be able to focus my mind a little more, since I have released a lot of stress and tension during yoga.  I would like to learn a little more about Tai Chi and see if this is something that I could also use instead of yoga or switch back in forth between the two.  I believe that if I got my mind a little more focused I could meet my physical goals a little faster.

            Spiritual, by being more focused and calming my mind, I believe my spiritual side will see some growth also.  I plan on using mediation for my spiritual side along with reading my bible, earnest prayer and prayer for other people.  I like what Dr. Dacher says, embrace all living beings, including those whom you consider to be your enemies.  A change will take place in your mind and your heart.  Integral Health also states may all individuals gain freedom from suffering, find sustained health, happiness and wholeness, may I assist people in all of these areas, not only through prayer but having a relationship with them. 

            I am a goal setter.  I make yearly goals, monthly, weekly and daily.  I am also a list maker, so I know that if I write it down, and run with it, I will finish the race.  I would like to lose another 20 pounds, and I would love to do it in six months, and I know that it is attainable.  I HAVE to put me first, my mind, body and spiritual needs instead of everyone else all the time.  That is what is usually my stumbling block. 

            I never want to go back to where I was.  Fat, unhealthy, tired, sore, weak, depressed.  Just remembering that feeling will keep me from ever going that direction again. 

        

It has been a pleasure being in class with you!

    

 Ann